For many their first kiss is like their favorite movie
Playing back and forth in their heads with stolen smiles
For me it is a horror film I wish I had never watched
This horrific day still plays in my head
Claws of memories continue to have a hold on me
Yet I cast my wishes upon the stars hoping the sea swallows my past
For it was all my fault
Walking through the dark hallway I heard his voice call out my name
The voice draws me closer for I was too naive to think otherwise
“Come inside,” he said
“For what?” I did not know or ask
As my nine-year-old legs stepped into his domain of sinfulness
His evil eyes examined my little body as if I was a meal ready for eating
“Come closer,” the lust in his voice spoke
I couldn’t move any closer as I was soaked in fear
I wanted to go home
His old hand held my chin and said “what beautiful lips you have”
As the coldness of his hands moved across my tender body
My heart cried for help, but my mouth just couldn’t
He placed his geriatric lips on mine
I could not pull away, he was too strong for me
Tears flowed like oceans from my eyes
My voice was lost in the deep sea
Never to be found, even by the greatest sailors
Every touch from him created more pain than a nine-year-old could ever bear
His hand reached out for my pants…
I finally had the courage to cry out loud
I couldn’t shut myself up
Letting me go from his evil grip
He looked me in the eye and whispered
“If you tell anyone, you will die.”
From my heart, I knew death wasn’t what I would get for being molested
But at the same time…
I couldn’t help but think
It was all my fault
If only I had stayed home
Oh maybe if I hadn’t tempted him
All this wouldn’t have happened
But it did, and I am to blame……
Author: Anonymous
Picture Credit: RediffNews
This poem speaks to me in an unimaginable way. Good job Sleepless in Monrovia, for bringing awareness to issues such as this. It’s time that victims of rape and abuse see themselves as just that;victims. Y’all are truly giving voice to the voiceless! Kudos
Real piece. My heart is in pieces, I don’t even know if I want to call it beautiful. It’s definitely an eye opener..