Today is supposed to be the first birthday of our child
At the first checkup, the doctor said the child was going to be a girl / she tiptoed & kissed your navel
You asked your mother how child bearing is like?
How long does one carry a human in her navel?
[however]
the happiness you carried in your stomach turned into blood
blood flooded your body
you wrote the date of your imminent childbirth
it slips off the calendar each time
you held your blood in your arms
some dripped from your legs so you called it your own
your child
your blood after four weeks of carrying it
11:34PM, the room /
silent like the music playing under your voice
pain was the beat playing in the background
you felt naked
and saw your child becoming
coming out of your vagina as blood
then you fell in love with our child /
And fell out of love with us
your mama said the heart was the first organ that died that night
followed by your love for me
then your body became the holy trinity
God the father – your body
God the son – your blood, your child]
God the holy spirit- our love, that went blank
Authored by Jeremy Karn
