As I transcend from purgatory to heaven
I remember the sin that held me here after living
All my life, I wanted to be good at everything
I wanted success without the fame; never the best at anything
And from the onset, I was rarely sinning
I was taught my each and every thinking
Leaving me conditioned to thoughts and feigning
As I am transcending from purgatory to heaven
I am reminded that society is but a blessing
It smiled at my hurts but frowned at the best things
It talked about the heavens but prepared me for the worst scenes
It talked about giving when it was actually selling
An embodiment of the devil that acts as a reverend
It preached about love when it was actually hating
It taught ways to live, but it was barely existing
Showed me how to live in harmony with everything
But never allowed me to truly appreciate the essence of anything
Lacking contentment, I always wanted the next thing
So I ended not in heaven nor hell but here in the space between
As I transcend from purgatory to heaven
I am convinced that I’ve learned my lessons
I wish posterity don’t fall prey to these exact things
I wish they get to think their thoughts in essence
I wish for them no expectations but blessings
No blockage but passage
No time to lavish
And lots of opportunities to ravish
Now that I am at Heaven’s gate
I realized why I ended up at purgatory in the first place
All my life was spent within the margins
“Never do too much”
“Fit in, never stand out”
“Be a sheep”
I watered my passion and didn’t dare to stand out for anything
The one sin that got me there was: choosing to exist and barely living.
Authored by Jay Hoff Jr. x Joshua S. Kulah
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