I wish I knew what being protected is…
He came swiftly, like a theft in the night.
Digging his fingers inside my great beyond,
Leaving me with nothing but nightmares.
Now, my body is broken and bleeding;
I can’t even explain how it happened!
He promised to help me get in school
For this chance, am I a victim or survivor?
She said, “I’ll empower you through education”
This, for me, was more than a dream come through.
Maybe being molested was worth this shot;
Maybe him touching me was a blessing in disguise.
Even though he stands in her shadow staring at me,
I can be more than a victim of these memories.
All I ask is how does it feel to lose a virginity at will?
Too bad mine was stolen from me.
I want to drown myself in the 7 seas!
To wash off the dirt of your sins.
I want the salt to free my body of this shame!
All I want is to feel like a “ Girl” again.
I just pray time heals my brokenness;
Someway I’ll find the strength to forgive myself.
If this is all a dream,
Waking up would be my greatest achievement.
Authored by Curtis Itoka